Every morning you wake up with heavy breathing...what if it would have not happened...what did you miss to tell him, what did he miss to share with you...what it is that we would have done differently...every morning you wake up with that thought as if there is a burden of tons of buildings on your chest...rest of the life is never going to be the same...I lost my father a year back and also few relationships, I thought to be most precious in my life...one after another! I was hoping that's it and its never going to be any further low! But it did...it went lower than I anticipated...my dear friend was taken away by cruel cancer.....as if the universe was desperate for me to be left alone!
We shared a "No Filter" relationship... Death looks so real now than ever...like a part of my life...what a paradox...he was the one who was bowling me in my profile picture of this blog!where he would have gone? will he be thinking about our spiritual talks and saying yes, you were right? or no, there is nothing like what I believed? only he knows the truth for now...
Many thoughts keep coming, breathlessness comes with those thoughts and without knowing, a drop of tear falls down...these tears are unlike other tears..i started to see the difference between tears..their temperature, their nature and their flow....these tears come from entire eye..not from one point..does our feelings dictate our tears? why others cant cry like I do? is it a weakness? my buddy hardly cried...even during painful days, he tried to maintain his smile....I cried whole time when I was flying back from India to see him...he was possibly just waiting for me...after I arrived, he left in couple of days! I remember holding his hand in my hand when he was literally breathings his last breaths...and I promised him that I will be his best friend even in the next life - if that really exists! Only he will know it for now!
But frankly, no one ever tells you what it is to lose a friend for rest of the life! Go and call your friend now and share a laugh...he is not going to be around forever! Here are the videos of our 2012 reunion and his meomrial service....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8j6M_Xd_8lE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyxHqCBpdMI&feature=youtu.be
We shared a "No Filter" relationship... Death looks so real now than ever...like a part of my life...what a paradox...he was the one who was bowling me in my profile picture of this blog!where he would have gone? will he be thinking about our spiritual talks and saying yes, you were right? or no, there is nothing like what I believed? only he knows the truth for now...
Many thoughts keep coming, breathlessness comes with those thoughts and without knowing, a drop of tear falls down...these tears are unlike other tears..i started to see the difference between tears..their temperature, their nature and their flow....these tears come from entire eye..not from one point..does our feelings dictate our tears? why others cant cry like I do? is it a weakness? my buddy hardly cried...even during painful days, he tried to maintain his smile....I cried whole time when I was flying back from India to see him...he was possibly just waiting for me...after I arrived, he left in couple of days! I remember holding his hand in my hand when he was literally breathings his last breaths...and I promised him that I will be his best friend even in the next life - if that really exists! Only he will know it for now!
But frankly, no one ever tells you what it is to lose a friend for rest of the life! Go and call your friend now and share a laugh...he is not going to be around forever! Here are the videos of our 2012 reunion and his meomrial service....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8j6M_Xd_8lE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyxHqCBpdMI&feature=youtu.be
